summer na ba? ewan.

warui, buhay na ulit ako. pero mamatay ulit ako bukas. puktektek naman kasing requirements yan. walang tulugan! :p gagawa pa ko nung anthology sa Creative Writing in Filipino, essay sa Comp Sci, Case Study sa Social.. may year end reports pa sa JA. wah. :'((

comeon. im just a child. im just a teen living for my dreams.

bati na kaya kami ni bernstein? kung di ko ba naman kasi nahuli yun na gumagawa ng kabulastugan sa 129. tas bigla pang pumasok si erroly poly oly.

Dad texted me through his non-roaming number. talking about wasting money. he asked me how me and my contact lenses are going along, and how my new piercing sucks (cos i dont even have one yet. maybe before ng review :p) and how i should spend my summer, and how i should help out Mom (takte di nga ako marunong magwalis eh). Tsk tsk tsk.

anyhoo.

mamimiss ko ang nayn eyu. kahit ilang beses tayong nasermonan ng ever so hinahon na si maam tengson at kahit ilang beses tayo napagtripan ng mga ST. at kahit ilang beses tayong napagsabihan ng GLC at ilang beses natin napaiyak si mam glench. at kahit ilang beses tayong napagalitan ng lahat ng teacher. masaya pa rin yung mga 15 minute joke time at wresting sa Health, ungga tonggi vs. pba, mga pag-aamok ni allen, ung bilbil ni pael, yung mga pagpapakamatay ni marvic, yung singit ni marvic, cobra parties, yung legs ni mica, yung legs ni pael, yung pwet ni arce, si tomodachi, ah basta! madami pa. alam naman natin, fellow gold students na napakasayang section natin, at hindi tayo nag coconform, mga pasaway.

sige ate denne, see yah! (: thanks sa lahat at naging parte ka ng buhay ko.

uy bakla. pipilitin kong hindi matuloy, ayokong iwan ang bansang sinilangan.

Ate,
Ui salamat sa pagsulat sa polder ko hehe hindi kita gigripuhan poposohan
kita.
-carl c.
PS. I LABYU DAW SABI NI DAYNE.

gripuhan kita jan eh! hehe! sorry ah inubos nila ung pics! tas ayaw mo naman siguro nung kasama ko si 'Tol.

nakakatats naman. pati sina pael, marvic, otero, nagsulat.

Feel the bite! cobra energy drink
-pael

Cobra!!
-baldencio- (marvic)

Cobra
dn
tau....
-Kevs ^_^

haha. syempre puro Cobra!! haha! AYUUUUUUS.

at yung mga keibigan kong tapat.

Oi Denisssse!
salamats sa isang magandang taon! da best ka! :)
-errol

salamat. aylabyu tol.
-ludz

ei wazzup bagay kau ni ****** (pakyu) ingatz u palagi
-lon

PARTNER!!
mag-iingat ka palagi:) d best hayup!!
-mak

astig lambot mo
-allen

denok,
i will miss you!
-bryan

[[mahaba ang sinulat ni lengshue]]

let's drink buko once more!
-reps

Amino Acids
-NH2 (basic)
-COOH (acid) > aphoteric hydrophilic
tandaan mo yan! ingat ka sa mars!
-errol (ulit)

putris mamimiss ko kayung lahat mga o8 bobo. hahaha. ;)

strawberry montblanc ü

okay. spent the day through making the plans for our culminating activity. it's a secret, i tell you, a secret.

augh. wala lang, gusto ko lang mag ponder.

how come ang monotonous ng buhay ko?

Hindi ito remake ng Paul's Case ha, wala akong balak tumuwad sa tracks ng train.

pero yun nga. Bakit ang monotonous ng buhay ko?

lagi akong napapahamak. yun at yun din mga kaibigan ko. buti nga ngayon nakakapagsocialize na ko. wala akong lablayp.

eh kung sa hindi ako ganon ka bold eh. at kung ganon din ka weird ung mga tao sa paligid. ang weird ang weird ang weird! what's worse, ang weird ko para magkaganire sa weird!

at mas malala, kadire ung mga nagkakagusto sau denne. except nalang kung gusto ka ni istarpish. i don't treat him kadire. :)

humanda ka sa hotdogs bukas, denne. humanda ka. ugh. nathan wala namang kadirean. kung isusubo mo wag naman ung naapakan na.kadire eh.

Hands off the merchandise

just this morning i thought i was kicking and squealing my way out of the tangled mass of blankets and random things on my bed when i dreamt of having overslept for two days. I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL. not now, not tomorrow, not ever.

just last afternoon, i was cutting out cd covers when i realized the numbness i felt that i wanted to feel alive, that i still hurt, that i still feel physically;emotionally. i sliced one edge of the pair of scissors across my left wrist. i was going to gouge it out when i remembered that i was at home; i shouldn't do things here. the last time i tried cutting myself badly was a couple of years ago during a rather sullen class. when the teacher was discussing something about angina pectoris. and myocardial infarction. a sudden flash of light headedness followed by a surge of realization.everything, the delicate form of reality, came to brace me.

just last night, i cried my contact lenses out (well they didn't come off, really, even if ma'am anasta assured me that they would, eventually) FOR BEING SO DARN MISUNDERSTOOD for five years now. gawd. it's not my fault i'm NOT A ROBOT. I feel. I hurt. I tire. I have to be in the mood to do something. I'm sorry if i'm not what you expect i should be, but that's just me. I'm me, human,simple as that, as human as you, as human as any other person,with the exact same feelings but I EFFING NEED TO BE IN THE MOOD TO COLLAR THE EFFING JIVE. dig?

I think the Lord of the Flies is talking to me, like how he said things to Simon. he's telling : "what's the use?" "they're all against you." "you shan't trust no one, as a matter of fact, you can't" "can't you see they're using you?" "what's the point of living when at once you could die?" "are you afraid?" "then why can't you?" "you know you're not as happy as you seem." "you know how fake they sound when they say frowning doesn't suit you" "and that time you hurt yourself, they took it as a joke 'COS FOR THEM YOU ARE THE HAPPIEST PERSON.EVER." i'd like to drift and drown to the Lord of the Flies' words. yeah, so true. so effin true.

and to make it worse, the people around you. the grown-ups who should BE THERE TO GIVE SUPPORT. just because we're teenagers living for our dreams hoping to be treated as adults alike doesn't mean we should be treated AS adults-mature and all that-as well. gee, live with it. we're touchy. we're trying to build our FACADES. we're trying on different stilletos of skills, different kitten heels of confidence, fudge.admit it grown-ups.be coy, come on.you know you're being unfair.treating us how you were treated in an unfair manner. that's not hot.

and for the love of fudge and sugar (i'm trying to avoid cussing here, hi teachers! :p) effff! everything is just so friggin unfair. i get blamed. it's my responsibility. i'm the messiah. what the heck. go screw yourselves. you're the reasons why i need psychiatrical help. and i'm serious about that. five years. five effing years. so young.psycho.

so it all boils down to this, my life as of now.it's unfair, strangely risky, and in tagalog, something i could summarize in a phrase with three words: "bakit laging ako???"

can't you see? i've got problems myself. my F***IN LIFE DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND BEING A J.A. OFFICER OR AN ALGEBRA STUDENT. OR A STUDENT WHO ISN'T REWARDED WITH THE PROPER GRADES. OR A PERSON NOT REWARDED WITH THE PROPER LUCK IN LIFE. i am so sick and so darn tired of this ever nuclear flow. SO FU**IN TIRED i'm giving up.

thanks nathan and airah for the hotdog fight, and the attempt to undo my bra clasps. really brightened up thy day.

Kalokohan nung English

kaninang english, nag sub si sir Brandy (brandon, hehe) kay mam blanche. tawag namin sa kanya Bronson kasi may identical twin siya. kamukang kamuka. dati daw kalbo si sir Brandy, ngayon lang siya nagpahaba ulit. balik pagkabata kami kanina.

nagstorytelling kasi kami. yung the m*thaf*ckening fat cattuh pillah nigga o kung ano man yung totoong title nun.

grabe talaga. parang mga bata kami kung magrecite. yung makakita lang ng pictures..
MOON!!! SUN!! dats APOL!!

tapos nung sa part na lumabas na yung catterpillar sa cocoon, tinanong ni sir Brandy kung naging ano yung catterpillar. sagot naman si john rorie.

sir: what became of the caterpillar??

johnroe: PEACOCK!!

pael: the catterpillar became a cccCCCOOCKK!!!

haha. kalokohan! e muka nga naman kasi.

nung baking naman, ayun! yung lenguas namin masarap naman, hindi nakaka diabetes pero ang liit. parang bread stix. hihihi..

Pamily Awting, Awts!

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marso 3, 2007. the night before, nag obernayt kami kina miki sa san mat. nanood kami ng the notebook. mas nakakaiyak yung book, swear.

on the day, medyo 9 na kami nakarating sa neptune pavilion (directions: hanapin ang babae't lalakeng nakahubo sa tuktok ng pagong at sundan ang tinuturo nila) konti pa lang tao nun.

naglakwatsa muna kami at nakatagpo kami ng playground. ahah. pinicturean din namin yung dam kahit bawal. ang gyut gyut ehhhh!

dun sa fitness trail, sana kasi nag pants ako at rubbershoes, di ko tuloy magawa ng matino, tae.

ayon naman. after namin lumamon ng onting (onti ba, haha) hotdogs, nag pishing kami.

doobie: magkano ba?
us: 80 php per kilo.
doobie: andaming butete nun.

nabadtrip na sina miki at johnroe kasi pinapaikutan lang ng pish yung bait. kaya yun.
nag pokemon muna ako sa DS ni marvic man.

tapos lunch na. grabe! kung ano yung hindi namin kinain ng dalawang linggo, nabawi! tae-tae na!! hahahaa!!!! hahah. babuy.

after nun, nagboating kami. sinira namin yung mga sagwan, tapos pinagkabitkabit namin ung mga boat. ginulo namin yung mga 4 feet signs. tapos si errol mukang tanga. feeling elias (noli) ayun sagwan to the max to the highest level. parang sirena. nakahilata sa boat. may dare pa nga kami eh. tricks! magpapalit palitan ng boat sa gitna ng tubig haha.

dahil may ilang taong KJ na kung anuanong pinakalat na maling akala, yung track lang ung nakapag swimming. di bale. next time. sa year ender, sa beach tayo!! whooo!

basta. kalokohan. nag gaguhan lang kami at nag bwakawan sa pagkain, hahaha.

:P

parang barkada outing nga lang eh.

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