kotong kendi.

yesterday, i slept with my glasses on. :
fatigue. I'm really in doubt. i think i have some emotional illness.
i think it's manic-depression. Lahat ng sintomas nasakin na eh. even loss of appetite and insomnia. pati fatigue out of light work.

grades. yipey. got my card. and my grades are... (cheng chenenen!)

ENGLISH : 94
BIOLOGY : 99
FILIPINO : 91
MATH 8 Algebra : 84
MATH 8 Geometry : 83
SOCIAL STUDIES : 88
PRACTICAL ARTS : 89
MUSIC : 86
P.E. : VG..hehe

average : 1.49 ..

yehey... wala akong layn op seben!
But as I expected, i'm no good at any form of math.
I wasn't expecting: 91 from Filipino. Grabe. Tumaas pa ko ng 1 point kahit batugan ako sa sabjek na to.
Neither did I expect to have another 99 from Bio. Sayang. nawala talaga sa isip ko yung last part! 100 sana ako... :(((
and lastly... 84 from algebra... feeling ko kasi zero ako sa perio... :x wala akong masagot!!! :3

ESEM. I just had to go to SM that day for some calorie problems. :) So after mame and I got my card, we went to COOP to have the tailor make my uniform. unluckily, they pulled out from the shopping center. Then nandun si Aia tapos nakita ni mame. tapos may pupuntahan si Mame but I really need to go to SM. Eh 9:00 palang. so I waited for 1 hour. just sitting there sa siopaoan. toying with the applique on my sandals. :) and wiping my glasses. then nag-intay ako ng jeep. antagal. heck. after 10 years, may jeep na rin. and narealize ko lang na katapat ko pala ang aking bratty mayabang schoolbus-mate (mate? heck!) the whole time.
Nung nasa SM nako, hell! ansakit ng hamstrings ko. Reason: I spent last night playing with the jumping rope. so nauwi nalang ako sa pagbili ng babybench cologne (just for the heck of completing my childhood, namimiss daw kasi ang childhood mo kapag wala ka nito..hehe.) tapos binigay ko sa kapatid ko. saya no? Cotton candy.

I think pag magshashopping kami for clothes next time, i'd take dresses, overshirts and patterned stockings.. :)

P.S. : my card was seperated from the heap of report cards on the table. See, theres a huge pile on the right, and a small stack on the left. mine was on the left. anong meaning nun? iyon ba ang club of bestfriends ni miss Lily? hehe. ewan.

Cookie Cutters

"What I like about you - You hold me
tight.
Tell me I'm the only one why don't you come over tonight
Keep on whispering in my ear
Tell me all
the things that I want to hear
Cos that's true
That's what I like about
you"

[x]The Romantics, What I Like About You.

chop. our house is being renovated (again). Owing to the creaky ceiling.
DSL was choppy. Di ako makapag net. Thus the delayed post.
And woot. I lost 10 pounds in a few days. Which is not healthy. but I swear, I'm not doing anything.
Tulog kain lang talaga. Nagulat nga ako nung makita ko yung weight ko eh. Haha.
So.

Date. Janine would be arriving on 27 (confirmed) and dady by 28 (confirmed).
I hope I live somewhere I could jog. I love running. I just don't have the place.
(and mood). Maybe then, I'll be busy.

Mirror. My hair is getting longer now. Whee. I need to chop off my bangs. It's swooping over one eye now.
Iowanna look ala-emo. (see, I don;t want to call it emo cos emo is a way of living. It's not about the fashion, the hair, the music. It's just a way of living). I need to chop it off. Or should I say razorcomb.

Acids. teased aquanet bangs. wanna try that hair soon. lol. i watched ice age 2.
Bading na ang boses ni Sid. Dati lalaki pa sya pero ngayon bading na.
Mga loka, bading ang mga Sloth noong post Ice Age. Ipagkalat nyo mga bruhilda, ipagkalat nyo!

Okey ka Kokey. Game. So there's an excerpt from a song at the beginning of my post, right?
according to Dr. Dolittle 2's Cherise (sp?) : everybody is meant to be loved.
woot. so i stumbled across this thread about love in this forum, and cos i dunno anything about it, i read on.
one delicate topic. then another one: PMS. one girl said: sex is only a sin when done outside marriage. almost everyone disagreed. but there's another [logical] girl who said: sex is only a sin when done out of lust. agree? I do. That's one of the major stirs in our generation at this point of life. Magising kayo pipol. Bata pa kayo. Love someone out of pure love. no lust. no musth. don't be so sloppy, having relationships (or flings, i say) just for the heck of experience. Ano, so yun na yun? Have you read Ha Jin's Waiting? According sa kaibigan ko, masarap lang daw yung 'ligawan' at 'kiligan' part pero pag kayo na, naku, bagong goal nanaman. Same with Waiting. Kapag na reach mo na yung highest goal mo, what next? Amp. Parang ano lang yan eh, Nagnakaw ka ng candy pero hindi mo naman kakainin. Shetlist pare. Mahilig kasi tayong mga Pilipino sa bawal. Kaya lalong pinagbabawalan, mas gagawin. Nakaka thrill daw kasi. Gumising nga kayo. tae.

"Suddenly he felt his head expanding with a
shooting pain. He was giddy with the intuition that this marriage might not be
what he wanted. He sat down on a rock to catch his breath and think
more.
The voice went on, Yes, you have waited for so
many years but for what?
He found his mind blank and couldn't answer. The
question frightened him, because it implied that all those years he had waited
for something wrong.
let me tell you what really happened, the voice
said. All those years, you waited torpidly , like a sleepwalker, pulled and
pushed about by others' opinions, by external pressure, by your illusions, by
official rules internalized. You were misled by your own frustration and
passivity, believing that what you were not allowed to have was what your heart
was destined to embrace."

[x] ha jin. waiting.

BamBamBa-Bam. Ba-BamBamBa-Bam.

Hiding. I've been playing my brother's Sims(2) for two days now. And he doesn't know. He's out there (in the open shore) with the sand under his feet. envy. I wish I were in a beach. Beaches ar bitches.

Well anyhoo, I did manage to keep my Sims in a Platinum mood. Characters? Well, there's the family guy, ()Damien Perkins. Longish hair, minimal stubble, glasses, loves to stargaze, play the piano and paint. Ang ilaw ng tahanan ()Madison Perkins. Layered hair, pretty made-up face, black clothing, and loves nothing else but to WooHoo.(in public). ()Doux Perkins, formerly a razor-cut redhead, now a mohawked brunette. Has acne (eew). Loves to study but lacks energy so her grades are pretty rough. ()Stoi Perkins, formerly a kid, pretty wavy shoulderlength brunette, formerly wore a tight red shirt, a skirt and boots when she was a kid(i styled her after this really adorable kid adi baby was playing with one day in mcdo) but changed into a skimpy black dress when she became a teenager and loves to walk around the house in her swimsuit. Had her first kiss with Amar today. In the bathroom. And lastly (and least, i mean it) ()Dyl Perkins the effing toddler. I often use the moveobjects cheat so i can delete this character everytime i play. i hate kids.

I hope I pwn the b0x one day. And keep my studies like last year as well. Tae kasi yung first year ko eh. nakakawalanggana.

parang feel kong mag reminisce ng acads. wala lang. giggity caprice.

8:00-Biology. Wala talaga akong gana sa bio noong 1st quarter. sa totoo lang, 85 lang ako nun. naka 27/43 pa ako sa isang take home activity (hindi daw siya homework. what's the diff?). Feeling ko kasi ayaw akong tawagin ng teacher kasi lagi akong nagtataas ng kamay. equal footing-footing kasi tong si mam go. pero kahit anong mangyari, may favorite pa rin siya. noong 2nd quarter, ginanahan ako dahil may isa akong kakilala na mas mababa pa ang nakuha sa akin kahit na nag-aaral siya. Dito talaga ako nabuhayan kasi favorite ko talaga yung topic. eto na talaga yung matatawag na Biology. Cells, Cell division, Chromosomes. lahat ng may C sa simula. Kahit na wala akong ginagawa ay naghulog ang langit ng isang whapak na 66 na baliktad na sinulat sa card ko. oo naka 99 ako. Noong 3rd qtr, sobrang nafrustrate ako. kasi perfect ko lahat ng quizzes, projects, activities, etc, hindi ko lang naperpek yung long tests (57/60 at something). 98 ako nung 3rd qtr. Etong 4th, aba'y ewan nalang. Pero masaya na ako na naging highest ako sa batch sa isang long test (54/55). kahit nga yung best in science namin na-aamaze kung bakit alam ko yung gluteus maximus. hello xtine, parang common knowledge na yun ah. joke.

Algeb. Lintik ang algeb. Noong una, maganda. 88 ako sa 1st quarter. 2nd ako sa perio (45/50). tapos nung 3rd quarter nagkaron ako ng 79. naiyak ako nung music dahil napakalaking panira ito ng card. akala mo card na ni gabes eh.. 91, 90, 98 tapos biglang... 79?! amp.

Social. Mahina ang boses ng teacher namin. 1st quarter, 87 kami pareho ni tintin (katabi ko..hehehe). tapos nung 2nd sobrang hindi na ko nag-aaral. akala ko makaka 54 ako. laking gulat ko nang makita ko na nakasulat ang isang tumataginting na 87. parang kinopya nalang. naka 92 si tintin. tseksh. Noong 3rd, malakas na ang boses ng teacher namin. Exchange. Ang highest namin sa social non 89. mababa kasi talagang magbigay yung teacher (daw). Second ako with a whopping 86. syet. Sa sandaling iyon. (3 seconds lang ha) naging parehas kami ng average ni tintin.

English. dito tayo panalo. yung 1st quarter ko, okay lang. 88 yata ako nun. yung second, aysus, 84 yata highest namin, 82/83 lang ako. hindi ko kasi magets yang linsyakang gerund na yan. yung 3rd quarter, magaling yung ST namin, (ikee ngingiti yan) , laking UPIS pa kaya alam ang taste. naka 91 ako dito. for the first time nagkaroon ako ng isang line of 9 sa english sa HS. kay maam soro kasi puro otso otso. Tapos, nung 4th quarter, 49.17 ako over 50 sa card. kinompute na yung grades ko kung nagpasa ako ng recquirement, 95 ata ako. ata lang. kinongratulate pa ako ni mam. nice one.

Filipino. haaay. ang mahal kong fili. naka line of 9 rin ako sa iyo! okay lang naman ang grades ko dito, hindi bababa ng 80, (mga 88, 85) tapos naka 90 ako nung 3rd. yehey! ingat kayo mam poli. nakakamiss ang firing squad. speaking of firing squad, pwede na itong tawaging mile stone dahil noong 3rd qtr, ako lang ang hindi napatayo sa firing squad. ang saya. salamat sa iyo, Suskrisyon.

PA. ayus lang. tama. madumi na ang sapatos ko.

Com Sci. Masaya itech. naka 90 ako nung 1st quarter. tanga kasi ako, hindi ko nakitang may 2 points pa pala akong di nasasagutan sa perio. sayang din yun. Reset!! demn you.

Health. 'Yus lang naman. Kung hindi lang dahil sa problema sa barkada namin nagrerecite na ako ng sunod sunod. lagi kasing nakamata sa amin yung teacher. lagi nalang ang homegrown ang mali. hindi kasi sila nakikinig sa parehong panig dahil siguro pakiramdam nila pupunta sila sa langit kapag pinagtanggol nila ang mga baguhan. parang ano lang yan eh.."the customer is always right" pero badtrip nga lang kasi "no return, no exchange" kaya dapat may "lifetime guarantee" ang mga itech para pwedeng palitan kapag may faulty wiring. 92 at 93 ako dito sa sabjek na to. okey na rin. kasalanan mo ito babycake. :)

Geom. ayus ito. ito lang ang math na natipuhan ko. kahit na wala akong ginagawa naiintindihan ko naman kahit paano. 2nd ako sa klase namin nung 3rd qtr. naka 86 ako nun. mayabang si xtine. mayabang sya kaya ginawa ko syang ginseng root.


sana wag dumating ang kuya ko.. hehe.

Bittersweet Apple Peels

miraculous breakthrough. would you believe that i woke up @ 5:30 am? w00t.
it seems like my devart frenzy is plunging down at a rate faster than a falling sandwich (i always use this phrase in my English projects).

Okay. So I don't know what date it is today but my dad would be coming home by the 28th, and my trusty ole friend, Janine (otherwise known as Kaye) would be here by the 27th. Unluckily, due to the killjoy cygnus of Feng Shui we couldn't go to any beach. Which is a weird thing cos we always dip in shores during summer.

[x]HELP ME[x]

Take me to the sea.

Fach. Yup. That was a stretch for the F word. Other than being bored to death, I'm forced to sleep after lunch Prolly because of my brother who would not go to sleep unless I would as well. But then its soo hard waking up. Specially after eating. Am I getting fat? darn.

Our digicam's broken (thanks to my wonderfully intelligent brother who placed it right below a working air conditioner for months, making its mechanics freakishly moist), but luckily, i've got my N6680. muhaha.

Lara dearest IMed me last night asking me if i would want to join their skating thingy (once again) by the 22nd.

I sort of declined it (sort of lang ha!) kasi hindi ko alam yung exact date ng pag-uwi ni dadi and kaye.

To make it clear.. nacoconfuse ako. tae. hindi ko kasi alam kung anong mangyayari sa 3rd year.

sobrang busy ba? (lalo na at JA ako, bus. man. pa ,FYI) Mahirap ba? (ohh shaat i regret my 1st year)

talking about first year..

GRR talaga. tama nga. nasa huli ang pagsisisi. 1.83 ang average ko nung 1st. sana naman greater than 1.75 average ko last SY tapos sana naman makaya ko ang 3rd year. shungklanks talaga. sharts.

Ilang days na nga lang pala ilalabas na yung card. oh well. ang tanga ko. ang tanga tanga mo damien.

Pretty Things Like Lemon Rinds

It's something I knew wasn't coming. there are a few ups and downs that have been circulating my soul (and brain as well) these days.
so lets see what i've been doing.

deviantart it seems like ive been in a devart frenzy for a few days. and i even stumbled across this page which gave me a one week trial subscription, for free. i got a lot of hits after a few days prolly cos of my deviations called Popsicle and Innocence (which are both too amiable)

computer games my brother is so soaked in PS2 right now so i literally pwn the PC. extreme pwnage of teh b0x0rz. i tripped across this red box kept under the cupboard and found a hoard of ultimately soft and silky smooth (i know, quite a stretch) pc game knock offs. i tried to install Sims 2 for the nth time already but i'm not good with faux stuff and this crack thing is frustrating. i'll try again tomorrow morning, i mean, i can install it and i copied the crack and still it does not show the piccies and the descies and there's a problem with the living mode and its quite annoying. im sooo not good with fauxies.

school due to the constant nightmares of acads, i started memorizing (exagge, i know) the dictionary and reading my brother's chemistry books. i also started memorizing the PToE. and its stupid cos i didn't get Titanium the first time i ran through it. I just hope math would go smoothly this time. *just* wish.

freaks get together? i dunno. you confuse me. that's all i have to say.

missing damn you into eternal damnation. i never knew i could miss someone this much. damn you. i'll tell on damien. he'd kill you and let your blood gush and spew all over the place. *sigh*

damien who is he really? i don't even know. he's someone i made up. someone i know i would meet somewhere in the future. anger. oh how i loathe your name. oh no. i envy your name. ypu should die in the hands of doom. but that can't happen yet cos i need to meet you first you blood sucker.

songs daaaamn these things are sure hard to take off. try visiting weebls-stuff.com . i'd particularly suggest listening to Badger Badger, Scampi, Magial Trevor and Dugong. I still can't take the songs out of my head. "everyone loves magical trevor cos the tricks he does are ever so clever look at him now disappearing the cow where is the cow hidden right now taking a bow its magical trevor look at him there with his leathery leathery whip its made from magic and with a little flip yeah yeah the cow is back yeah yeah the cow is back! back back back from his magical journey. what did he see in the parallel dimension. he saw beans lotsa beans lotsa beans lotsa beans oh beans lotsa beans lotsa beans lotsa beans yeah yeah!" damn. i still am singing it to sleep.

And Aubrey Was Her Name

today i've been scouting for i nice forum.
but either way, i got stuck in the same old deviantart community.
I've been making friends. And more friends.
So here..I met Shoon Lei Phyo. She's a normal girl from Myanmar. I met her in the forums, cos her scanner was broken and she needed friends.
that's me talking to random people.
and poof, i made a sig for all my forum fun..:

and this avvie for me too:

aibon kago-chan is too cute but why oh why do you smoke?

Pearl Arbor.

I made this painting a few hours ago. Her name is Fern. Oo, oo. bagong layout. i notice.

Right now, my lil bro is watching Finding Nemo for the nth time. Then he'll switch to Dinosaur or Brother Bear or Jurassic Park or Star Wars or Garfield, Evolution, Forrest Gump, the Gods Must be Crazy or God knows what.

Spent my day downloading fonts. Handwriting fonts, big fonts, header fonts, bitmap fonts, everything. Sorta need em for photoshop. I love photoshop, I wish I had a tablet (wacom is ok) and I wish this damn mouse would work the way I want it to work.


And because I've got so much free time in my hand, I made this for me! (and everyone else).


should you be stupid,
it reads:
some days you're the dog,
some days you're the hydrant.



plus i also made this for me. and for everyone else named dishi.(whoever you are)

orange sorbet.

isn't it just nice when you're having your house renovated.
binabaklas ang aming mga ceiling ngayon. aayusin. daw.
i had to sleep somewhere nice last night.
it's not supposed to be nice but for me it is, since i haven't slept there since grade 2.
this morning i went to a funeral. this is the third death. whoo. melancholy.
then we went to the mall to buy tools and a happy yellow tool basket (i can't call it a toolbox, it's err...a basket.)and my mom also bought this vinyl closet for there's no more space for clothes. and there's more coming.
if you see my old room, puno ng closet. traffic 'ika nga.
i bought some things i could use sometime in the future and for my porcelain dolls as well.
i took this lipgloss thingy just because i liked the color but i'm not gonna use it anyway.
I'm just staring at it.
and i also bought this silvery-whitey e/s for the epicanthus of my porcelain doll, danielle.
she's creepy. she stares at me at night.maybe this will make her look more cheerful.
I'm watching kareshi kanojo no jijou all over again. you know what?Ito ang secret namin ni mica para maging bwakaw. ewan lang kung samin lang talaga to umeepekto. mukha nga. :D
when dad comes, i think i'll revamp my closet(s). i need clothes. yes. i'm tired of tees. and skirts/pants and sneakers.
pero di naman ako a la Karen Walker [will&grace] na after magsuot ng damit itatapon na.
hindi nga niya alam na puwedeng labhan.
whee. 95 (ata) ako sa english. nakaka line of 9 pa pala ako dun. :P

sabi nga ni john roe:
ilong pa lang, ulam na!